Dark Warden

Sigh...up to now, I can't help but have thoughts of her, the only person I truly love. Breaking up really is very painful. the more you want to forget, the mor eyou remember, the more your remember, the more it hurts, the more you try to hide the pain, the more that it shows,... sigh. :(

its time for me to face a new day in my life. I really dont know how to put it. Maybe, I'm just blabbering non-sense right now.  I really miss my girlfriend, that is If I can still call her mine,. Partially, I am at fault, I was not able to give her what she deserves.. Its not because I dont love her but because, law school really occupies a large part of my time...


I really love her so much. However, the strain and pressure of law school is just too difficult for me. Sometimes, her presence is this only thing that keeps me sane from that hellish pressure from law school.

However, I think she has reached her limit and could no longer live a life with me. She is the only person that I've poured my life into...the only person that I truly loved and cherish...the only one I will love...
I love her so much that typing right now hurts me like a thorn piercing through my heart... I want her so bad yet, I know I dont deserve her right now.. Perhaps, if I can become the better man that she wants me to be, maybe she would one day accept me once again..

My girlfriend and I finally broke up. Last night, she was not replying or anything and around 10 in the evening I sent a text message saying goodnight. A few minutes later I saw a missed call from her. I texted her once againm but she did nit reply and so I slept. At around 1am, I woke up and saw several delayed message sent by her. She was breaking up with me stating that I never replied to any of her message. It sucks because I never received any of those message so how am i to reply. It hurts a lot because I really do love her. She's making me choose between law school or her which is a tough choice. All I am thinking about is our fufture but her view is that as long as I am with he rin the future, she doesn't care about how we are to live. :( Hay.... I no longer know what to do. In the presence of other I am so happy as if nothing has happenede, but when I am alone, I feel trhe poangs of losing the person I love... :( I hope I'll be able to get over this...